On Being Single

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night to pee.  I know, nothing out of the ordinary, right?  But what happened next was.

For some reason, while I was sitting there, the fact that I am alone, I am single right now, came up.  And for a split second I felt sad.  And then, the message (from…somewhere) popped in: “Enjoy it while you can.”  Next, I started to effortlessly make a mental list of all the benefits of being single:

– I hardly shave anything, ever anymore
– I sleep fabulously at night (with the occasional pee break!)
– I never worry about disturbing someone else’s sleep
– I get to make all the decisions about where to go and what to do without considering anyone else
– I have sex (with myself) whenever I want to and never when I’m not really in the mood

I’m sure there are others.  But the experience made me think of what our spirit guides often say to us during channeling: “Your soul wants to experience all of it.”

I am starting to see that it really, truly is all my creation, or at least my co-creation with Source and others.  And that there’s a gift in all of it.  In being in relationship.  In being single.  In grieving.  In being angry.  In being scared.  And in having sexual feelings.  Literally every experience I create in my life offers the opportunity to experience ecstasy in its own way.

I have a sense that my time of being single is slowly drawing to an end.  And that’s okay too.  But for now, I’m going to just enjoy these hairy legs!