Pretty Bows
There's a Blood Moon eclipse on my birthday, this Monday the 21st. It is connected to the rising of the Divine Feminine in this new era. (The word is, if you've been feeling a little funky lately, you're not alone. A lot of us more sensitive people have had emotional turmoil as the eclipse approaches. )
In this age, we hear a lot of talk about the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine. Many say it is the time of healing the Divine Feminine and Masculine.
Yet, saying that they need healing is like saying God/dess needs healing. If the Divine Feminine ...
A Sparkly Star
I came with my case of toilet paper
And my case of paper towels
And toddler wipes, to keep the buttocks clean, but of course not to clog the toilet with
I came trying to put on the face of order
And:
'It's all under control
I'm organized
I do things the smart way, can't you see?'
And,
'You should strive to be more like me'
I came as a terrified little girl
'Am I sure I'm ready for this?
What if he sees through?
That inside I am not so sure of myself
And echoes of Mom still play in my head:
You're not good enough
You're not wanted here
You're doing it ...
What I Require
I've been having some pretty crazy-good experiences since getting back from Puerto Rico. So much gratitude for so many of my sisters and brothers on their own journeys. Sometimes I am in the role of provider of love, opportunity for healing, all the good things...sometimes I am in the role of receiver. Or is there really a difference, I ask myself, between giving and receiving? (No.)
One of the gifts I have received in the last couple months is the chance to do some work with a very skilled teacher of Family Constellations, Suzi Tucker. I think I heard of this ...
Even in My Snowsuit
I am forever changed.
I just returned from a Tantra retreat in Puerto Rico.
I went fully into my Divine Feminine and received. I opened.
For years now I have been what I call a "twitcher". I don't know how long, exactly; a very long time. When I am turned on- and I don't just mean by S.E.X., I twitch. It starts somewhere in my core and branches out.
My twitching has been happening more and more, progressively, over the years. From present experiences, from memories, from looking at food, from eating food, from expressing deep emotion, from hearing truth ...
Numbers Are Good- For Math
I've been thinking about how we use numbers to evaluate people a lot. And it's not a good thing.
Numbers for scores on tests. Numbers for height. Numbers on a scale. Numbers for age. And there's always a "good" number and a "bad" number, right? As if these numbers somehow mean something about our worthiness as human beings. My God/dess, there's a literal rating system for someone's attractiveness! "(S)he's a ten".
The number that REALLY got me thinking about all this is the: "What's your number?" question. I don't mean me personally. I just mean in ...
Boundaries 101
Boundaries have been coming up for me SO MUCH lately! As I raise the bar with my own boundaries- again, defined by Brene Brown as "what's okay, what's not okay"- the next opportunity to inquire into and define my boundaries comes up.
What I know about setting and keeping clear boundaries is that it is way the hell up there with top ways for us to love ourselves. The first time I heard that, it struck me as odd, or at least as a thought I'd never had before. And, in time, I've come to realize how true that really is.
I do recommend giving some thought to this ...
You Are My Favorite
I used to have a supervisor at a job years ago that said (to all of the employees under her): "You are all my favorite for different reasons." At the time, I thought maybe that was her way of discouraging anyone from ever striving to be her favorite, or of having to admit she HAD favorites.
Now, I'm not so sure about that. You may know, I've been a bit obsessed with Abraham lately. Last week, I heard them telling about a four-part daily practice that they recommend. One of the parts is getting out in nature every day, no matter what the weather, and basically ...
One Big Analogy
Some of you may have seen a picture of my bloody knees that I posted on social media yesterday. Yes, I did that. Not sure if it was a great idea, almost took it down, and I didn't. My point was NOT "poor me", but people seemed to have a strong reaction to it, like it was some horrible thing.
Honestly, when it happened- I wiped out and hit the frozen earth while I was jogging- all I could think of was how pain was just part of life. And it doesn't have to be any big deal. I have mostly been feeling SUPER GOOD...and then I created some pain. Sometimes the pain ...
I Am a Rockstar
I just finished writing my annual list of all my accomplishments for 2015. (This is a practice I began about ten years ago while attending the Hendricks Institute for life coaching.) This year, I am pretty sure I had a record number of accomplishments written down: seventy-eight! I'm not sure if this means I actually progressed more in 2015 than I have in any other year, or I have simply gotten better at noticing and appreciating what I've been able to do in a year's time. And frankly, I don't care which it is. My general conclusion is this: I am a fucking ...
One Never Knows
A few weeks ago, I attended a cultural event that my daughter was performing in at her college. My ex-husband attended also. We might have driven together- this would not be unusual- except for the fact that we both had prior engagements, separately.
He got there first and waited for me to arrive before we entered together. It was a sit-down event with numbered tables, much like those that would be set up at a wedding reception.
We sat at a table near the front. We were the only ones at our table, until a family of three (mother, father, daughter) arrived. ...