I’m All Out Now

As some of you know, I was recently in a production called Opening Pandora’s Box:  Stories of Truth and Hope.  I got on stage and told my “story”, as did six other courageous women.  Although I have done television shows, radio, nude modeling and even worked as an exotic dancer for eight years, I never really had much “stage fright”.  Until I signed up to be one of the speakers in OPB!  As I told my boyfriend, I would have been muuuuch more comfortable just taking off all my clothes and walking onto the stage naked rather than getting up there and doing what I did.  It was like I was baring my soul, not my body this time, to the whole world.  One of the most terrifying things I have ever done!

And, I’m totally glad I did it!  Once I broke through my resistance, and my jitters,  I was having an absolute blast up there on the stage!  It was empowering in a totally unique way.  It felt like it helped me get through another layer of resistance, or my desire to hide my light.

So, watch out world, here I come!  I am totally out there, and ready to radically present my work in the world!

And as if that weren’t enough, I also now have a credit card that announces that fact in all capital letters!  Recently, I decided I wasn’t getting good enough benefits from my credit cards.  So I applied for one of those cards that gives cash back.  (Yeah, cash, that’s the ticket.)  I got  an application to get a business card, which I’ve never had for my Synergistic Energy Exchange business.  So I filled it out.  I decided to abbreviate the business name to S.E.X.  When I got the card, however, it simply said.  Maria Merloni.  SEX.  Well, that pretty much sums up my life, doesn’t it?  Nice.  Then I had to call customer service the other day.  The representative on the phone was obviously very well trained.  He said:  “Yes, we have you here.  You’re  calling about your SEX business, right?”  without missing a beat.  Affirmative.  I was calling about my SEX business.

Right…..I guess I am all out now.  No more hiding possible.  Feels good to be so honest, and so out there.  Let them wonder and judge.  It’s all part of the process, and it’s all good.