Oh, Fuckity Fuck

And I mean that in the absolute BEST way possible!

I am learning about surrender. I am learning about doing things the easy way.  I am learning about letting go of the struggle.

Right now I feel like I am floating.

I just let go of some things that I have been carrying for a very, very long “time”- AND, time doesn’t exist.

I didn’t do it through effort- well, some of it I did.  And then, I shifted into surrender.  I shifted into letting the process be effortless.  I allowed myself to be fully supported, physically and non-physically, and through ALLOWING I accomplished more letting go of things that no longer serve me in an hour than I could have accomplished in hundreds of hours the “old-fashioned way”.  Let’s say the “OFW” is through suffering, and pain, sickness, drama, holding on, tensing up, contracting, all the yucky stuff you can think of.

Who says “no pain, no gain?”  Don’t believe that shit.  It’s a bunch of malarkey!

My body is a temple, a vessel filled with white light.  I see and feel every cell vibrating with aliveness.

I realize I’m being very vague here, and it’s kind of intentional.  It’s not that I am concealing- Goddess knows you all know more about the intimate details of my life than you probably care to know ;).  It’s more that in this moment, I understand that sometimes the “story” just brings me/us down to a lower vibration, a place it is absolutely not necessary to go.  Especially if we want to keep feeling good!

I will say this:  Have you ever experienced peak moments?  You know those times in your life when you are simply bursting with joy and love?  Life seems almost too good to be true?

I’m thinking of a time when I was in Hawaii several years ago.  My best friend and her husband and I were at the beach watching the sunset.  I had just learned about this phenomenon that happens sometimes just at the last moment when the sun is about to go below the horizon, and suddenly, SO briefly yet unmistakably, there is a fluorescent green light that flashes on top of the water.  THAT seemed too good to be true, that there was such a thing as that even existing.  And we were sitting, and watching, and enjoying, and I was so happy and at peace in that moment.  It was my last night there after a two-week trip that involved going to a different beach every day, and watching the sunset most evenings- in that moment, life was GOOD.  Then I started to get this feeling in my chest as we stared and stared at the pink sun going down.  I felt like we were going to see it.  AND WE DID!  I don’t know why, (well, I guess it’s because I fucking love nature and beauty soooo much!), AND that just made my happiness jump like 10 more levels up.

So, you know, THOSE moments in life- the stuff that makes YOU light up?

Here’s what I am knowing so clearly right now:  THOSE MOMENTS ARE REAL.  Those are the real moments.  All this other stuff is a persistent illusion- the ho hum, the pain, the suffering.  And we create those real moments.  By being in alignment.  God is there, all the time.  There is no separation.  Trust me on this one.  If you are not in a place to hold the hope right now, I will hold it for you.  THAT shit is real.  And we can have it as often as we want to .  And the path there is lined with ease, grace, surrender, and relaxing.

Relax.  All is well.  You’ve got this.