Soul S.E.X.

There's no doubt that, as human beings, sex can and often does feel terrific- whether it's masturbation, or sex with partners. In fact, it feels so good that often we tend to think it's enough. What more could we want? Human touch, pleasure, endorphins...what's not to love, right? I agree, and there is so much more if we choose it. If we go deeper, to a realm of spirituality and possibilities. Making love with our souls is magical. What if you're not having a great time with sex? Or, you used to enjoy it, and now you're kind of bored? No matter what your ...

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Ah, Clarity

I'd been confused for so many years. I really did believe in "happily ever after"- of course, knowing that I wasn't going to get a Fairy Godmother and magic shoes. (Well, I mean, technically I could, knowing me, but...you know what I mean.) I even knew couples that were living in love, after decades of being together. I'd seen evidence. The truth was, though, I'd never seen evidence of it in my own life. I'd been in love, numerous times. I'd even had multiple, long relationships that kept going reasonably well for years. But I had never been able to get back ...

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Pretty Bows

There's a Blood Moon eclipse on my birthday, this Monday the 21st. It is connected to the rising of the Divine Feminine in this new era. (The word is, if you've been feeling a little funky lately, you're not alone. A lot of us more sensitive people have had emotional turmoil as the eclipse approaches. ) In this age, we hear a lot of talk about the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine. Many say it is the time of healing the Divine Feminine and Masculine.  Yet, saying that they need healing is like saying God/dess needs healing. If the Divine Feminine ...

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A New Beginning

Today is January 1, 2019.   I’ve never been a “party girl” on New Year’s Eve (wellll, maybe once or twice…), and have generally not considered New Year’s a big deal. This year, however, I feel different.   I’ve been struggling over the past year with illness, financial challenges, and fear about launching myself back into my work after many months of lying low.  (Don’t worry, I’m gonna be here for many years to come; I have way too much work to do before I die!) Yet, last night, as my Beloved and I celebrated New Year’s ...

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A Sparkly Star

I came with my case of toilet paper And my case of paper towels And toddler wipes, to keep the buttocks clean, but of course not to clog the toilet with I came trying to put on the face of order And: 'It's all under control I'm organized I do things the smart way, can't you see?' And, 'You should strive to be more like me' I came as a terrified little girl 'Am I sure I'm ready for this? What if he sees through? That inside I am not so sure of myself And echoes of Mom still play in my head: You're not good enough You're not wanted here You're doing it ...

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Gotta Love Somebody

When I was married, and incidentally cheating on my husband, I got together with an old friend I hadn't seen in years.  I think I was reaching out to all my former mentors because I didn't know what the f*ck to do. I was unhappy, cheating, getting away with it, feeling shitty about myself, and looking for answers. I told him how miserable I was in my marriage.  He said: "But you're going to stay in the marriage, right?"  My face twisted up in a grimace.  I told him I wasn't so sure about that.  He asked me if I was cheating.  I said no.  I lied about my ...

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Polyamory Revisited

So something exciting has happened in my life.  I daresay, I have met someone- first time EVER, people- who meets me on all the levels I need to be met. As usual, I ordered him up from the Universe.  I requested someone who meets me spiritually, emotionally, and sexually. And voila.  Thank you, God/dess. And then something totally surprising happened next.  I was on the phone with my bestie, who's pretty damn psychic by the way, and she told me she kept getting the message that I have been polyamorous because I couldn't find everything I wanted in one person. ...

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What I Require

I've been having some pretty crazy-good experiences since getting back from Puerto Rico.  So much gratitude for so many of my sisters and brothers on their own journeys.  Sometimes I am in the role of provider of love, opportunity for healing, all the good things...sometimes I am in the role of receiver.  Or is there really a difference, I ask myself, between giving and receiving?  (No.) One of the gifts I have received in the last couple months is the chance to do some work with a very skilled teacher of Family Constellations, Suzi Tucker.  I think I heard of this ...

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Even in My Snowsuit

I am forever changed. I just returned from a Tantra retreat in Puerto Rico. I went fully into my Divine Feminine and received.  I opened. For years now I have been what I call a "twitcher".  I don't know how long, exactly; a very long time. When I am turned on- and I don't just mean by S.E.X., I twitch.  It starts somewhere in my core and branches out. My twitching has been happening more and more, progressively, over the years.  From present experiences, from memories, from looking at food, from eating food, from expressing deep emotion, from hearing truth ...

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I Am Not a Bitch

And neither are you. When I really thought about it, I felt offended when a former partner used the b-word to describe me, or my behavior.  (He, incidentally was questioning also whether others thought he was a bastard.  So there are TWO b-words.) You see, I'm big into authenticity and was telling myself it was just him being honest about his experience. And then more recently I've been catching  myself referring to my OWN behavior as bitchy.  Hmmmm.  What's up with that?! Lately, I've been present to the true origin and meaning of the word "bitch", and I ...

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